FRACTURE

I don’t feel great about how things are going lately. Most days feel empty, like nothing really changes or stands out. I end up frustrated with myself—not because something big went wrong, but because nothing seems to move forward the way I want it to.

What bothers me most is the feeling that I’m still dependent on my parents. I want to be independent—not just in one way, but in every sense: money, decisions, freedom, and building my own path. Right now, that feels far away.

The main goal I keep coming back to is earning even a small amount of money on my own. It’s not even about the amount—it’s about proving to myself that I can start. That I can build something from nothing.

But starting feels blocked. There isn’t enough free time during the day, and I don’t really have space to try things openly. There’s also discouragement, and not much room to explore without being questioned or monitored. It feels like I’m ready to start, but the environment doesn’t always allow it.